My impulsive shopping spree

Hello everyone,

I almost went crazy by this blog host. The layout has super limited selections, there's no password protected post available, the picture is being cut off (when I have no problem with other blog hosts), and bla bla bla. I almost switch the blog host. But then I have thought that everyone is going to say that I am doing things impulsively. So, I have changed my mind and decided to stay for a while to give it a try. So please don't say I don't give people chances, I am cruel, bla bla bla... so on and so forth.

Anyway, I went shopping these few days. It was fun, and burnt a hole deep into my pocket. Let me show you guys what I got. But I have to warn you guys that most of these are girly stuffs. So, if you don't want to read this, you can skip them.

What a louzy blogger.

I know most of the blogger post some interesting pictures to amuse the readers. Me? I don't even have the energy to do so even when I have a dummy camera with me at all time. I have becoming more and more lazy. I used to be called the crazy person by a close-by person cause I took pictures at almost anything that's in my way.

Maybe is because of the discouragement, I slowdown, and soon enough, I quit taking pictures, not even a thing. My laziness can also caused by the lack of laptop that comes with the card reader, or even my busier life style.

Aside from that, I went shopping today. What did I bought? Well, too lazy to take the picture. Maybe next time. So, no picture from me personally today.

Since I don't have a picture to post, and this post is in need of one...







Men, this picture took me forever to load it. Now the picture is being cut off. Damn blogspot. I can't do anything with the template either.

Hmm... thinking of having a facial treatment tomorrow. Want to be girly for a day, hah. Let me think through.

Update: I have finally fixed the missing part of the picture, by changing my theme?!

That sandy throat.

I have been feeling well and horribly ill on and off. At one moment, I can feel extraordinarily normal, especially when I just got up. But at times I feel so sick like chills in a stuffy and hot room, with fan blowing not even directly at me. Now, I am having that sandy throat feeling (sand in the throat) and a stuffy nose.

Maybe is because of my sickness, I have been throwing tantrums. I find everything annoying. Nothing has been done, angry at myself why can't I get my gradually expanding butt off the chair, away from the computer to get myself clean and smelling good (ya, now you know I do smells bad most of the time).

For example, I did absolutely nothing during my past two days. Do you know what's on my agenda for those two days though? I intend to first, wash my clothes that are piling up, and second, cut my nails. Only those two that I have to do for the past two days. Of course there are others I wanted that need not to be mentioned here. But instead, I use those two days sleep till almost noon time, stack up the fat on my thigh and butt right in front of the computer for the rest of the day till midnight, actually past midnight. Can you imagine how productive is my life? Not productive at all.

I am so annoyed at my life, yet did absolutely nothing. Can you believe that my nails are so long that they can be used as a weapon? I even accidentally scratch myself many times.

I have been cussing a lot lately. See, many sees me as the girl who never throw tantrums, never cuss, good at study, and all that good stuff. I guess I just look too studious. Often times they are shock after knowing the real me. Hello, confession here! I am not what I look, K? And I sure did not intend to give you the false impression on me. I will just have to find out how to look more... er... something else, hah, and quit cussing too. Ya, cussing is bad.

Oh, guess what, I went to eat by myself today. I believe this is my first ever sitting in the restaurant and eating by myself. Hate that. I just dislike eating by myself. But I want to eat my pills. So I have no choice but pretending to be busy reading one of the novel while eating Alone...

They even have a WikiHow on How to Eat Alone in a Restaurant. Let me cut and paste for you.

Steps

1. Choose a lively dining spot with food you like that has quick service.

2. Ask for a seat at the counter or bar. In addition to ordering a drink, the bar tender can often show you the menu. It's very common for those eating alone to sit at a counter or bar.
3. If no bar or counter is available or you simply prefer a table, ask the hostess to seat you. Just say "table for 1 please" or "it's just me this evening." Smile. It's ok, they want to serve you and are happy you came. If there is a seat by a performer, such as a piano player, ask to be seated near the entertainment.
4. Engage the waiter if you are looking for conversation. Ask them to recommend a dish or ask about the local weather.
5. Bring a book, magazine, or newspaper to read while you are waiting for your meal. This will put you at ease.
6. Enjoy your meal. When the waiter comes by and asks you how everything is, tell them fine and ask for the check even if you are not finished eating. This way you won't have to prolong the time you sit at the table alone.
7. If you are enjoying yourself, you may try to relax and do some people watching. If you catch someone's eye, just smile.
8. If you get up during your meal before you have finished to use the restroom, let the waiter know you'll be right back so they don't clear your plate by mistake.
9. Pay your bill and tip your waiter and thank the host on the way out. How lucky for you to have someone cook for you and wait on you.


OK. I did most of what they have listed there. Still, extremely uncomfortable. I don't mind eating alone at home, cause there are always TV who eats with you. But in public, there's no way to go.




Googled. I don't know who this is. Not good at photo editing either. But that picture explains exactly the feel I went through. I have that 1500ml of drinking water in front of me too.

Anyway... Enough rambling. I am going to clean myself now. Ciao.

Mood: Sandy.

Getting sick.

I think I am getting sick. Sore throat, sneezing, and more sore throat.

So, I believe I am getting a cold.

Probably too tired, and lack of water intake.

Aside from that, I am getting lots of break out. What happened??? It begins with my cheeks, then, bunch of them in between my eyebrows. Now, at the side of my face...

Is it the lotion/moisturizer that I used, or the late night sleep, or the lack or water intake, or the hair shampoo that irritates my face? Or could it be the face washer that I use? Argh! It's driving me nuts. No matter how hard I am trying to save the now pimpled face, nothing seems to help. Why am I getting these when I am already ugly enough?



Googled. Now I looked like this...

Music: I Did Wrong - 2AM
Mood: Sick.

What a Bliss.

Hello you all,

I know I have not been keeping up the pace lately. Just want to let you guys know that I am still up and going, hah.

Anyway, I love the taste of bliss, though my life have not been very blissful for me. You must be wondering what I am talking about right? There are many bliss that you can try. But I found this particular bliss extraordinarily nice. I bet you still don't understand what I am talking about. Well, let the picture do the talking then.

Life is…lifeless.

I can't fully express how much I hate my life right now.

I don't know what to do with this life that God has given me, I don't know what I should do to keep myself to think that there's a purpose of this life. In fact, I have been thinking of ending my life. I don't have the will to move on no more. I don't understand why God wants me to go through this.

Or is it that God never intended me to go through this, but is the people in the world that is destroying my life?

I thought, having some hardship in life should not give you any reason to just run away without facing it. Only a coward does that.

A coward that lies and steal just to get her life comfortable, run away to avoid the real problem, disregard what other feels and thinks.

That evil patch up a pretty life for herself, and destroy others without a piece of guilt feeling in her, let you soak in your own somber.

To avoid from being blame, the evil brainwash everyone first, so to make people think that you are the one that destroy your own life, belittling others' name, make their name worth not even a cent, then sit back and watch this great disaster with ease, laughing as those who are trying to save themselves, especially happy when seeing those who are about to drown by their own tears...

The person who is harmed, has no energy to move on, no encouragement, no will, no more... The weak human wants to go back to its owner. Only hope that the owner will accept the human who so wish to go back to Him with the wrong route.

Bat

I have becoming a bat...

I motion at night, and stay home so that I can rot during the days.

What have happened to my life? I didn't used to do this. I used to get up early to go to work, and go to sleep as soon as I get back, as soon as my head touch the pillow. But now, I sleep late, and wake up in the middle of the day. Spend the rest of the afternoon doing absolutely nothing, and come online at night. Then, I will just call it a day. Spend the rest of the time doing absolutely nothing again. What have become of me? I dare not to imagine...

Mood...less...

There have been so many things happened to me lately. I don't know where to turn to.

Nothing that happen is favorable on me.

I have lose a friend, a friend that I thought I could trust. Yet, that dog bites me after feeding her!

I make a promise after getting the assurance from that dog, and now I can't keep my promise either.

I don't know what to do... Seriously, I don't understand the meaning of life.

Buzz!

Hello, I am back, with pains.

I have been living in a suitcase for a while now. Many things have changed since.

Anyway, I will be using this space from now onward. The only thing I will have to do is add all my old blogs to this site, if I manage to.

Take care.